Why am I still here?

I have no idea
Not a single clue
Why this old blog keeps calling to me
I have moved on, I think to myself
To other things, I'm different
And still this old blog keeps calling to me
It contains my past
But now I live in the future
Yet this old blog keeps calling to me
With its brilliantly awful poetry
And I greet it, my old friend
Today we meet once again

Song is calling

A song calls in a language that i don't understand.
and he says it means war
but she says it means peace
and you say it means hate
but I say it means love.


A song calls to me in a language I don't understand
and he second guesses it
but she doesn't question it
and you reject it
but I accept it

Because music that's written from the heart
Can be taken in no matter where it travels
For it will always find a place in the hearts of those
Who believe good music transcends the language barrier

Like me.

A visit

I revisited this blog today

After ditching it years ago

I cannot believe I used to write

Such angst-y poetry 

I was at the height of my creativity 

I laugh now at who I used to be 

Appreciate the finer points

And look back on my way to looking forward

Am I?

Are you who you want to be?

What kind of question is that? 

Something I've never thought about. 

I've always known who I've wanted be years from now. 

But I've never asked myself :Am I living the life I want to live? 

Will defiantly pray about this one.

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(I abandoned this blog for a little while,but I'm back, with more short poetry. Below is a piece of a song for a story I'm writing)

With a fling of the hand, set the old ablaze

With a nod of the head wash the flames away

With a swing of the legs clear away the ash

With a cross of the arms make new Earth at last.

That's what you do to make new Earth

heard

When I open my mouth to speak

And no words are coming out

I am scolded for my rudeness

Yelled at for my loss of words

When I speak and words come out

But they do not sound like they should

I am stared at, briefly

And then left alone again

When I speak, and I am heard

I think This is what I want

Sometimes, all I want

Is to be listened to...

hazy...

Around

My whole day spins

I'm tired

So leave me alone

And don't talk to me

Those are my thoughts, sometimes

Today, my wish nearly came true on the wrong day

None of the guys talk to me...

At least, the ones I want to talk to

But I tell myself what I told everyone else:

"I don't like anyone. I don't need guy's approval. It's a waste of time"

I've never had so much trouble believing my own words...

footprint

Gunshot in the distance

Some hundred years ago

From whose gun this shot was fired from

No one knows

All I can think about

Are those footprints in the snow

Those crimson

Footprints in the snow

Was so-called freedom worth those bloody footprints in the snow?

Ragged breath by nightfall

Those hundred years ago

Was it the hundredth? Thousandth? Death that year

No one knows

But all can dream of

All I think of

Are those footprints in the snow

Those crimson

Footprints in the snow

Was so-called freedom worth those bloody footprints in the snow?

And as our leaders take their presidential thrones

Affecting how many?

No one knows

Do they they ever think of

Do they even know

Of those

Footprints in the snow

Those crimson

Footprints in the snow

Was so called freedom worth those bloody footprints in the snow?

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energy

Sway
From side to side
Hold
Your head up high
You notice I'm energized
And you don't know why
Cuz I
Bounce
Way, way, too high
Sing
And it will reach the sky
You notice I'm energized
And I don't know why
Ever want to
Jump
From side to side
Sing
And touch the sky
It's cuz you feel energized
I hope you know why
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calm

sunny out
i'm calm
for once
in my life
i'm not
pissed
i'm not
angry
i'm not
sad
i'm just
calm and almost
happy
to be
alive
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Fightsong

All you male supremacists
Had better watch out for me
All of you racists
Will never see it coming
I'm coming down hard
I'm coming down fast
And I'm going to leave
A STING THAT'S SURE TO LAST!
All you sellouts
Tryin' to conform me
You better know
Not to mess with me
I will come down hard
With a lightningbolt fast
And I might leave
A STING THAT'S BOUND TO LAST!
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YAAAH!

I had
The worst day
Possible
In terms of my life
I think I'll
Go crawl
In a hole now.
Or better yet
Get off the couch
Take action
And do something about it
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love

Sometimes it's blind
Sometimes it lets you finally see
Sometimes it constricts
Sometimes it lets you free
It can be choking
binding
squelching
without room to breathe
Or it can restore
what once was
And what now will be
It all depends......
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weirdness

It pulls you in
It sucks you in
It never wants
To let you go
I was pulled
I was sucked
In the mere hours
Of yesterday
It's strange to see
How I long for
The weirdness to take
Me in again
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ads

We look
No, we STARE
And they flash
The images
They aim to please?
No, they aim to SELL
Anyway they can
They use all schemes full force
And we buy it
Literally and figuratively
They aim to please?
No, they aim to SELL!
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pissed

Most of the adults in my life
Are pissing me off.
They lie
And say one thing but do another
They won't let me get a word in
Then say I don't talk
Stop lying
Just because I'm younger
Doesn't mean I'm not a person
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greeting

hello everybody,
This is my new blog
some one READ IT this time!!
only one rule:
COMMENT!!
i don't really care what you say...
...as long as you say something!!
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